Happy Friday everyone! I’m so glad for the weekend, but I’m not in the best frame of mind. I’ve posted about my scale obsession before, but for those of you who don’t know I weigh myself daily. Some people might say its unhealthy, and there is definitely a truth to that, but it’s one part of my ED that I cannot let go.
This morning I stepped on the scale as I do everyday. The numbers were not good – I gained weight. It’s only a couple of pounds and its the same every month (yes its that time), but for some reason I was devastated this morning. I hate to admit it but this little shift in weight ruined my morning. I’m going to do my best to move past it, to not want to limit what I eat today, to not kill myself at the gym and most importantly to not feel guilty about last night.
Moving past last night is going to be the hardest part. I mean that’s why I gained the weight after all, right? Can you believe I actually considered this? Come on, as if one meal that was mostly healthy could really make me gain weight. And if it did why should I feel guilty? I really enjoyed myself at dinner. The food was fantastic as was the company. It was one of those nights were there is not a single lull, it was nothing but laughter.
As I write all this down I begin to realize how ridiculous these feelings are. Two pounds? Really? I’m going to get upset over 2 pounds that are probably due to hormonal changes and a heavy hand with the salt last night? I’m going to let 2 pounds make me regret a nice night out. I don’t think so. Those 2 pounds will melt away by the end of the weekend and even if they don’t its just 2 STINKING POUNDS! This is not the end of the world.
Okay. I feel better. Thanks for letting me talk through that.
So here’s a recap of last night’s amazing dinner at the Mermaid Oyster Bar. The meal that I almost felt guilty about.
We started with the Grand Platter. This thing was a beast.
The platter includes 6 east coast and 6 west coast oysters, 3 littleneck clams, 3 cherrystones, shrimp, mussels & crab cocktail. Since we had 4 people we upped the ante and got 8 of each type of oyster, 4 clams and 4 cherrystones.
For my main I actually ordered an app – the Sautéed Calamari.
The app was more of a salad with shiitake and cremini mushrooms, feta and frisee – it was so delicious.
Dinner out wouldn’t be special without dessert, even though Chubbs doesn’t eat fro-yo he always indulges my craving. The Lite Choice. Classic swirl with rainbow jimmies.
My extreme reaction has me wondering about you. I know my mom and sisters gain some LBs with their monthly flow. But only one gets worked up over it (my sister Jill who also suffered from an ED).
Do you notice weight fluctuations? If so how do you deal?